The biggest pair of pants I have ever owned was a plus size 32. I don’t remember when that was, at least 3 years ago, and the last few years I’ve fluctuated between 24, 26 and 28. Pre-surgery I went to a Goodwill and bought a couple of pairs of jeans in smaller sizes (16 and 18) and while I haven’t quite gotten to the 18, the size 24 pants that I have been wearing since before surgery have gotten too big and it’s become ridiculous to keep wearing them. Last night I stopped at Goodwill again and bought a pair of size 20 pants. I wore them to work today and they fit (for the most part). They are a little tight, but I honestly didn’t care because it meant that I wouldn’t have to hold them up every time I moved. I’ve discovered that the weight differences between plus-sizes is greater than it is with smaller pant sizes. I’ve lost over 130 pounds, but I’ve technically only gone down 5 to 6 pant sizes. If I were in the “normal” pant sizes, it would be a lot more than 6 sizes. Someone said that a 10 pound fluctuation in a plus size isn’t going to change the pant size, while the same fluctuation in a “normal” size could mean going from a size 4 to a 2.
Wearing tighter clothing has revealed that I actually have some curves and I’m not just a circle or a blob or something. Waist definition is not something I ever thought I’d see again. I’ve always had trouble with pants staying up (even when they were my size) because I never had a defined waist. I had the torso-version of cankles. I was basically a box. A rounded box.
My goal weight has always been up in the air. Would I like to be the recommended weight for my height (which is about 160)? Yes, definitely, but the reality is that I have been obese for most of my life, so 160 pounds on me would probably look sickly. I figure that once I get under 200 pounds, I will evaluate how much further I want to go. I may be fine at 199 pounds, but I also might want to go down another 20. I won’t know until I get there. In the grand scheme of things, my being considered “overweight” at 199 pounds would be a godsend considering 3 or 4 years ago I was tipping the scale at 400 pounds.
At this point in my weight loss surgery journey, I do not regret my decision to have it. I know some people have regrets, but I also have been very fortunate to not have any problems as of yet, except for some severe constipation early on. I would recommend the surgery to anyone who feels ready to have it, but there has to be a lot of psychological changes that you need to undergo before truly feeling ready and there are some things that you will never be ready for until after surgery. I believe I was as prepared as I could have been. Years of therapy with an eating disorder therapist, evaluating my goals in life, getting my depression under control, and changing my lifestyle and habits were all necessary for me to be ready. Some may not need all of that, but I highly recommend using as many resources as you possibly can before actually going through with it.
Measurements update: I took my measurements last week and since January I have lost about 25 inches.